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random acts of blog
"The Things We Think, But Do Not Say"
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Sunday, February 23, 2003 :::
i love the video for this song...
[taken from]"I Miss U" - Aaliyah
It’s been too long and I’m lost without you
So what am I gonna do, said I’ve been needin’ you, wantin’ you
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
Now you’re gone and I’m lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow
Come back to me (To me)
Can you feel me (Callin’)
Hear me callin’ for you (For you)
‘Cause...it’s been too long and I’m lost without you
So what am I gonna do, said I’ve been needin’ you, wantin’ you
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes
Now I’m sittin’ here thinkin’ ‘bout you
And the days we used to share
It’s drivin’ me crazy, I don’t know what to do
I’m just wonderin’ if you still care
And I wanna let you know that it’s killin’ me
I know you got another life, you gotta concentrate, baby
Come back to me (To me)
Can you feel me (Callin’)
Hear me callin’ for you (For you)
‘Cause it’s
It’s been too long and I’m lost without you
So what am I gonna do, said I’ve been needin’ you,
wantin’ you (Baby)
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
It’s been too long and I’m lost without you
What am I gonna do, I’ve been needing you, wantin’ you
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
I can’t (I) wait no (No more) more (No)
Since you went away
I don’t really feel like talkin’ (No)
Don’t wanna hear them bug me (No, no)
Tell me do you understand me
I can’t do but be without you
It’s been too long and I’m lost without you
What am I gonna do, I’ve been needin’ you, wantin’ you
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes
i'm one of those people that's still sad that Aaliyah is gone. not because i felt like she was my homegirl or anything. i just think it really sucks that someone so talented is gone, and we'll never know what else she could have offered the industry and her fans. man.
::: posted by sugar at 4:46 PM
oh and by the way...
...i didn't get the job.
"And that's all i have to say about that."
::: posted by sugar at 3:41 PM
Saturday, February 22, 2003 :::
I'M BACK!
Sorry to everyone that tried to log on but couldn't because Blogger was shifting me to another server or something like that.
That was the scariest thing...for like a whole day it was saying "the site you are looking for can not be found." EEEEEEK!! Months and months of venting, good times, bad times, and random thoughts lost forever...but not.
Hee.
::: posted by sugar at 1:55 PM
Tuesday, February 18, 2003 :::
V-day weekend wrap-up
Alrighty, here's the low down...the weekend went by QUICK, good lawd! I can't believe I'm sitting here at 5:30 on Tuesday, killing time before my film festival meeting already.
Friday...V-DAY. I still and prolly will always have mixed feelings about this whole "holiday". I spent years thinking "it's a capitalist crock, filled with propoganda to guilt you into spending money. we should love and be loved all the time. who in their right mind would spend $100.00 on roses when they're normally $15.00 or so??" Then the years I did have some sort of celebration I either ended up wishing I would get some sort of yummy smelling plant, a present or something...or I'd cringe at the cheesy un-originality of the $100.00 roses. I know...I'm horrible.
So this year, trying to forget the memories of white teddy bears holding silk hearts, fettucini dinners and a box of Kit Kat, I woke up on Friday morning wondering what was ahead of me. We had barely enough time to make arrangements for dinner - after chucking the picnic idea on account of the rain, and his veto of Roy's because he didn't want me to throw down a lot of money, we agreed on Lotsa Pasta in PB. If you haven't been there yet and you live near enough, you're cheating yourself by not going. Trust me.
Fridays are always a drain at work, so I'm always a zombie afterwards. Sucks that way. But it all worked out in the end. Dinner was good, although I shouldn't have ordered the special after hearing that it was "the last one"...it was dry. :-( Good news is, Darryl liked his order, which is a relief because lately I'd been taking him to my favorite spots and he was getting mediocre food or service wherever we went. Hung out on Ocean Front Walk for a while, then went back home for some quiet time. No one but us at the house for a change, woo hoo! He gave me a surprising gift - the first season of 24 on DVD. I was touched by how much thought he put into that...seeing as we never get to watch it because he's more obsessed with Smallville than I am with 24...so I pulled my usual and just deferred for him to see it "someday". Plus he saw how I'd been drooling over it at Fry's saying "I'm gonna get that someday!" And finally, there's knowing that it's sold out all over the place. He looked far and wide before finding it at one of the Borders stores.
Saturday...first to wake up as always. I'd invited some of the folks over to my place for dinner, partially because I missed being able to throw dinners, I missed seeing the people who'd show up, and I missed sleeping in my own bed. Yes, that last one is my fault but we won't go there right now. So after taking Darryl and Maria to La Torta for their first time (another winner, I'm on a roll finally!), it was grocery time. Finally got back home and went to work. Felt great to make a big meal in my kitchen again. Made chicken afritada (a Filipino stew with chicken, potatoes, carrots, red peppers, garlic, tomatoes and spanish chorizo) and spaghetti alla carbonara (peasant's spaghetti with smoked bacon/pancetta, pecorino cheese, crimini mushrooms, garlic, cream and egg). I was left with two servings of the afritada when it was all over. I'll take that as a compliment but good lawd! Had some old faces come through which was great.
Couldn't help but get irritated with Miss Thang, who decided to show up 2.5 hours late without an apology and then she had the nerve to leave as soon as she arrived to get Starbucks, then return with the news that she already ate a burrito and wasn't hungry. Oops, I should have mentioned - that was AFTER she said to me "Girl this is one of the first times I haven't seen you on the phone, you're ALWAYS on the phone." Complete with attitude at no extra charge. What the hell was that? I put up with the PDA all up on my couch, giving them just as much leeway and teasing as I did everyone else that night. Hours later when she finally left, she mentioned that the food was good and I replied "Thanks! When did you eat, I thought you said you had a burrito" "Oh, [Turtle] got me a bowl of something earlier." "Oh ok...well, thanks." *she gives sideways look* "Wait, you MADE all that?" "Uhh...yeah. I don't order out, I do my own catering, thanks." I realize I went overboard with that last one. But for the love of Pete! Don't be all coming at me crazy when I was nice enough to invite you to my house. Don't blame me if your man doens't prep you on how to survive on my turf.
She is officially fired. I've been giving her chances since DECEMBER and it's now getting closer to MARCH. I'm done.
Moving on to Sunday...went with G-Beezy to the Buick Invitational. For those who are sports-challenged, the Buick is a golf tournament held here in San Diego, and it was Tiger Woods first tourney since he was out on injuries. I didn't realize how much GB was into Tiger...she is crazy about him! It was so cute. So we cruised around, trying to get good views of Tiger and the other players...Mickelson, Couples...it was cool. Plus it's a cheap way to check out the course itself, which is much more expensive than the price we paid for our special tickets. Hee! I must admit, though I've been given plenty of chances to tease Tiger, he sure has come a long way...he's not only one of the most talented players in history...he's finally becoming cute (to me).
Vegged out afterwards cuz of all the walking and sun and stuff...then proceeded to veg some more on President's Day Monday. The roomies were teasing me about all the time I'd spent at home this weekend. I guess I deserved that. Sigh. Guess I'll have to revisit that thought pattern at a later time. Meanwhile, my time is up, and I'm off to my meeting. Cheers!
::: posted by sugar at 6:10 PM
senseless amusement while on break
step one: put 75 cents in vending machine.
step two: select twix letters E5, since that's 65 cents and you can afford that.
step three: watch the twix drop and say "yay!" when you take it out of the machine.
step four: hear the change drop into the slot, and count out...85 cents.
step five: smile! you just made a profit on the vending machine!
::: posted by sugar at 5:30 PM
Tuesday, February 11, 2003 :::
Office Space (part 1 of a continuing series)
Bummer. I can’t ask my original, supergroovychick supervisor questions anymore because she’s moved on to another division of the dept. Whether he knows the answers or not, I have to ask the new supe, who’s actually just “testing” to see if he wants to stay on as a supe. Meanwhile, I’m sitting here as a temp with more knowledge and more experience, but not the credit of being a full-fledged staff person. Not to mention the benefits and such.
I’m thinking about yesterday’s interviews still. No one here knows where I really was yesterday, for obvious reasons. When I think about the work that I could potentially be doing, it’s a little intimidating. But I know deep down I could roll up my sleeves and just adjust quickly. It’s a little hard to read ppl’s reactions, especially Scott’s, who is the one actually needing the assistant and making the final call on who to hire. I know I impressed them all, but it seemed as though they were all wondering if my goals matched the career path that is inevitable with the position: first assisting Scott…moving on to consultant or project manager and so forth.
The week that he’ll be gone taking vacation is going to really kill me. I know that today they’re having a meeting which will include a discussion/assessment of me. Then of course they’ll be meeting with other ppl I’m sure…
I REALLY WANT THIS JOB. ARGH!
I need to jump forward and do something more challenging. Something that can help move me up too. This is it. All they have to do is pick me.
Pick me, pick me!
Hee. Ok, I feel like I’ve tried out for the school play or for the ____ team, and I’m just waiting for the results. :-P
Alrighty, back to work.
::: posted by sugar at 10:20 AM
Monday, February 10, 2003 :::
"simple algebra"
3 hours + 4 interviews = 1 brain dead me
x smiles + y questions + y honest answers = 1 new fangled high-paying job for me
x other qualified candidates applying for the position + z = 1 doubtful me
where z = unknown variables such as whether the Senior Mgr. REALLY liked me or what...etc.
and finally...
if x = my highest salary ever, and y = my potential new salary; and if x < y; then I'll be really really happy to get this job.
WOOHOO!
haha....we'll see.
::: posted by sugar at 6:41 PM
Thursday, February 06, 2003 :::
"part of a balanced breakfast"
1/4 of the lasagna that i bought but didn't eat for lunch yesterday [this thing is HUGE!]
1 bunch of Lay's limon chips
1 mini Krackel bar
1 cup of coffee, light and sweet
1 glass of water
meanwhile, free Metabolife bars with vitamins and stuff are sitting in the kitchen untouched.
maybe i should try moosey's egg/tuna thing. i actually know about 5 guys who have done that whole tuna/egg white/rice/sometimes veggie/always sriracha thing. hee.
::: posted by sugar at 8:23 AM
Tuesday, February 04, 2003 :::
ain't it cool?
did you know that the anarchy 99 guy, yorgi (i like that name) from xXx was the same homie from Lord of the Rings (Fellowship)...the elf from lothlorien that says "nine of you were sent forth from Rivendell, yet eight are here...tell me where is Gandalf for i would much like to speak with him" or something like that. i can't remember exactly how it goes but it sounds like that. so anyway, that guy, all in his blond wig or whatever, has longish curly brown hair and amazing eyes and plays the deluded bad guy in xXx.
never woulda made the connection without mr. harry knowles. lol
::: posted by sugar at 10:41 PM
NEWS FLASH!
interview at end of next week or two weeks from now. sister's firm. executive assistant/project manager. travel opportunities, offices worldwide, potential lateral transfer to hawaii office down the road.
GOOD GRACIOUS.
let's hope i don't screw this up, or some magna cum laude doesn't beat me out of a kick-ass opportunity.
::: posted by sugar at 12:58 PM
Monday, February 03, 2003 :::
things that rock about work:
1. the paycheck
2. the free coffee (except for the french roast...eek!)
3. the gym, complete wtih cable TV
4. the ironic presence of snacks all the time, despite the fact that we're supposed to be a diet/nutrition company
5. my supervisor and team
6. the lack of the Big Brother factor (unlike a certain insurance company)
7. the totally casual dress code
things that...don't quite rock about work:
1. one always wishes the paycheck would be higher...nothing wrong with a dream!
2. the coffee is only good when a really groovy chick brews her hazelnut/vanilla blend. yummy! otherwise...drink at your own peril.
3. there's never enough time to work out, it seems.
4. the snacks can add up, especiallly when you get "too busy" to eat real food or you forget lunch/lunch money
5. my supervisor is in another part of the division now, so they're gonna hire someone else soon.
6. i keep wondering if Big Brother just isn't as present as before, or he's better at hiding out or something.
7. still feels funny saying hello to the CFO in jeans and sneaks. and i'm not at the level some ppl are around here, wearing T-shirts. that's just a little too far for me.
::: posted by sugar at 4:37 PM
Moment of the Day
Went to the ladies room, and actually heard someone in one of the stalls flipping through a newspaper.
That is just too too creepy. I got out of there as fast as I could to avoid face to face contact. I woulda laughed my arse off.
Ok, back to work.
::: posted by sugar at 2:07 PM
Sunday, February 02, 2003 :::
website of the moment:
a blog brought to you by Alton Brown, the Good Eats guy.
although I'm still a little skeptical as to whether or not he's the one really writing it. then again, the writing is a little dry. but we all have our days where our blogs could use some work. but alton, if you're out there, i will say (since you don't have a comments section) that your show rocks mostly always, and keep it up!
hee.
::: posted by sugar at 9:12 PM
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