Wednesday, January 29, 2003 :::
 
[I'm playing catch-up...stuff I wrote but didn't post...]
still Monday, 1/27/03

Deja-vu

Sorry boys, there are no strippers in the following story...

I feel more and more like I'm hearing the phrases "I know you from somewhere", "You look familiar", etc. This isn't a bad thing, until you feel like you remember them from somewhere too and you can't place them.

The most recent example was [Sunday] night at Tea Time, the newest boba (aka tapioca/bubble tea/sago/qq) joint off of 54th and El Cajon. They just opened and since it's down the hill from Darryl's house I've been there a lot already. You San Diegans who float through the College Area should check it out. Good prices, owned by a really nice newleywed couple. Anyway, I take Jeremy, Judy & Nhon...and Nhon happens to know the husband so I finally found out his name is Minh. And now that they found out my name, they're starting to ask me where we've met before, how we might know each other, and how they're sure that they've seen me before. I had always kinda wondered the same thing.

The creepy part I guess is the fact that I've had a...checkered history down here, I wonder if I met them working at the mall, or at a party (eek!) or what. There's just this awkward moment where we're looking at each other trying to remember.

WEIRD.

Not like I have some sort of criminal record, but still.

Another interesting moment: they see Jeremy's car which, from the front, looks pretty much exactly like Darryl's car, minus the convertible top. So Minh asks me about the car, thinking it was mine. Then it comes up about all the different people I've brought into the shop and Minh says "So is that white guy you brought in your boyfriend?" "Everyone's like "WHAT?!"" All teasing me about who this guy is, and I couldn't even remember. But [as I sat writing this] I realied finally that they saw Matt Arnold. DUH. And ILL, he would so never be my boyfriend.

And on a final deja-vu tip...

I feel so awkward when people around the office say "Hi" to me, usually addressing me by name, and half the time I don't know their name. I dunno if it's the dead brain cells or these ppl just found out my name through the grapevine. But I met mostly everyone during that tour 2 weeks ago. Who knows? Oh well.

::: posted by sugar at 12:06 PM


 
[I'm playing catch-up...stuff I wrote but didn't post...]

Monday 1/27/03

"Gourmet" my arse!

Today was the first day that the "Gourmet Express" people came to the office. Their gimmick is the fact that they consider themselves a gourmet roach coach (AKA food truck for those of you who didn't go to CSM). They bring soup, fruit, salads, sandwiches and "a hot meal", with selections varying daily.

So the email goes out that they've arrived, and they're giving out free samples of chicken caesar salad. We go downstairs and I try the salad...

Uhm...yeah.

I will say that the chicken was good. Restaurant grade...if you've ever had chicken salad at Chili's or Marie Callendar's...like that. But the dressing SUCKED! Big time. I'll just leave it at that and move on. Their "hot meal" was "chicken teriyaki w/rice, carrots and mushrooms." I opted for that rather than take chances on chicken/gouda or ham/brie sandwiches.

Can I get an "uhm...yeah"?!

Three words: Uncle Ben's rice.

I realize that there are people out there that actually believe that this is good rice. The thing is, I'm not one of them. I'm a jasmine kinda gal. Long grain, fluffy, starchy rice. The stuff they gave me made me think of bug larvae or something. I didn't remember signing up for Fear Factor!!

Oh and by the way, for the record I got about six slices of mushroom and five little carrot pieces. All for the bargain price of $5.95.

I shoulda had a V8.

Sitting here (I was out on the balcony that afternoon) with my pitiful lunch, I hear my mom and dad's voices saying "It's ok...just eat the meat."

Let's be fair...the chicken was really good. (We won't talk about the "teriyaki" sauce.) And I'm very aware that many people would give anything for Uncle Ben's rice and six slices of mushroom. AND this is one of the first times in months that I've been able to buy my own lunch with not as much guilt about how much I spent.

But the fact that someone thought to label this crap "Gourmet" and charge me $5.95 is OFFENSIVE. Like when someone tells me that B2K is the best new R&B group out there. OFFENSIVE.


::: posted by sugar at 11:55 AM



Monday, January 27, 2003 :::
 
what the heezie?!

i don't know what that was that i saw yesterday on ABC. i heard it was supposed to be the Superbowl, but I felt like I was watching the Westmoor JV play against De La Salle Varsity.

SAD.

but at least the NFC came through again, and goes to show that if the Bucks beat the Niners, they're gonna have to beat everyone.

SIGH.

i heard from Darryl that the Pregame shows were better than the halftime show. oh well.

question: Shania Twain's outfit. Thumbs up? Thumbs down? Lip synching=thumbs down. Grr.

::: posted by sugar at 10:30 AM



Friday, January 24, 2003 :::
 
lunch time

so it's silly slipper friday at the office....

i'm wearing pumpkin's poofy ladybug slippers, thinking i'm all original. first person i see is kim and she says "oh how CUTE! just like phylliss'!"

mmmmaaaaaannnnn.

she is the cfo, or chief financial officer. in the world of corporate finance and accounting, you can't get much higher. i'm not bummed because she's a bad person or something, she's actually quite nice. but at the same time...what a bummer! i guess it's like that feeling where you go and get an outfit you really like and then you go out and see someone else wearing it too. grr. if that person is your friend, you can say something like "oh-no-you-didn't" (hee hee boo)...

but i can't picture saying that to phylliss. sigh.

anyway, i was at the airport last night pickin up jinah and it was so groovy to see all the Superbowl fans coming in. exchanged some cheers and smiles with the raider fans, jeers with the tampa bay fans. lol.

i'm wondering how much it costs for these people to get Superbowl packages. they all fly on the same flight, right when you get off the plane you get a bunch of free stuff. (after all the conventions and stuff i've been to, i can't say that the free stuff is the supercoolest all the time. but free is free! so anyway) you get shuttled to the aiport and most likely to the game and back so that you can drink your azz off at the stadium.

i couldn't believe how many different agencies there were though! sports travel something-something (can't remember), gameday getaways...there were a lot. then again after the last Superbowl in San Diego (where the Chargers got SPANKED by a much stronger 49er franchise), that was prolly when all of those businesses sprung up.

lunch is almost over :-( i wish i could take a nap, but i've got a couple of projects that would make me look really good if i finished them before the weekend. sigh. seems like my theme these days is "prove yourself." work and...home-style stuff. on sunday, darryl says to me "i don't want you to think that you have to prove yourself." at the time he said it, i thought to myself "huh?" now it makes sense.

speaking of, he called just now to let me know that michelle branch and santana were practicing at the moment for the halftime show. unfortunately, the sound didn't carry through the phone. :-(

lucky!

side note: i think there is some sort of sick jerk out there that keeps running the celine dion/caesar's palace radio ads ALL DAY LONG. my mission, should i choose to accept it, is to kill this person.

(duhn, duhn, duhn duhn duhn, duhn, duhn duhn...doo doo doooooo...) (ok, sorry, long week has got me loopy.)

hee!

HAPPY FRIDAY EVERYONE!

::: posted by sugar at 1:00 PM



Thursday, January 23, 2003 :::
 
quote of the day

phimster: "you're going to have to learn that you're in a relationship now, and that means you have to check in and stuff like that."

yesterday, i didn't go home straight from work, and i turned off my phone. so when i got to darryl's house, 2 hours after i got off work, he was already there and he kinda gave me this funny look and funny tone of voice, asking "where were you?" "well, i went to this one place in the hills of tierrasanta, took some time alone to think about some things." "did you resolve them?" "ahh...getting there." "did you turn off your phone?" "yeah." "good for you." "yeah i hadn't done that in a long time." "i called your cel and i called you at home, no answer." he wasn't hostile or trying to start stuff, he was just plainly asking. but i still sensed that he was a little...displeased.

phimmy was good about reminding me about him getting mad at james for not checking in with him, calling and such. so she advised me to be more...considerate next time. thanks lady. i'm still unlearning a lot of my single mentalities.

i was talking to moosey earlier, and it's nice how he's so supportive of [me and] darryl. he always make my day saying good things about darryl or the relationship. "he's a good guy, that darryl." "be nice to darryl doo." LOL. i find it ironic that we still haven't hung out in person yet, and we might never at all. but that's ok. he like mahals, he cool cat.

speaking of which, i haven't talked to henry in forever. mahals, if you're reading this, will you do me a favor and call me?? or least send me a text message or an email so i know you're doing ok. :-) found a place yet?

i'm so out of touch with the roomies. duy is leaving for Washington D.C. (OCA NB Meeting and to see his parents) today and won't be back til Wednesday. if i hadn't called home today to ask about the mail i never would've known.

sigh.

i dunno. i think in about a month, life will stabilize a whole lot more and i won't be so off-center. *crosses fingers*.

i'm so jealous of mike and tomio, all partying in japan. shieeeeet. i gotta get my shit together like yesterday. lol

::: posted by sugar at 7:45 PM


 
sportscenter

gonna go to the NFL Experience tomorrow night downtown, hopefully hit a party or two...then "the biggest fireworks display in history" is happening Saturday night...then Sunday is THE BIG GAME.

GO RAIDERS!

it sucks to not be around fans this time of year. i mean darryl is trying to learn about sports now, which is so endearing i could DIE...but he's got no time anyways. jinah is interested but still learning the rules and teams and stuff...i can't hang out with mike because that's just asking for trouble with darryl right now...jeremy is MIA...whenever i hang with aram all he asks about is if i can help score some good stuff. plus i don't really vibe with his haole friends. then there's joe, who's MIA somewhere in North Park...i'd almost feel weird trying to hook up with him for the game. unless i offer to cook again :-). and of course mike would be up my ass about how darryl looks like our friend sascha. then there's leeva, but she's so freakin busy that trying to make plans with her is almost impossible.

i don't think i know enough sports fans in SD.

sigh.

in other news, my (niece) celine is on the girls basketball team at westborough middle school. WOOHOO!! yay celineski!!! i still remember when paulo (her older brother) was first on the basketball team in summer leagues...i would watch his games with...yeah. the funny part was at that age and skill level, they let all the kids shoot like 2 free-throws at the end of the game. a last chance to add to the final score, and to let all the kids touch the ball i 'spose. LOL. trisha (the eldest) is still cheerleading, ironically they have those cute ass outfits but from what trisha tells me they mess up a lot on stunts. just goes to show that money can't buy you everything. (she goes to a "rich" school; mercy b. for those of you who live in the Yay.)

i miss them :-( but thank goodness for text messaging and IM. :-)

::: posted by sugar at 7:18 PM


 
silly slipper day

tomorrow is silly slipper day at work. tomorrow morning the entire company is going to congregate in the lunchroom, have free breakfast while wearing fuzzy bunny rabbits or whatever, and talk about personal and professional goals and development.

in a lot of ways its going to be so weird because i'm not really part of the company. i just get to crib off the free breakfast and wear funny footwear.

i think my financial situation and everything that it affects has got me in a periodic paranoia about my status and reputation at work. like every time i get tired or every time i feel myself being somewhat of a slacker i get all strung out like Big Brother is gonna say "you're fired for laziness!" yes, i'm a dork. but i'm a broke dork. bad combo doods.

tomorrow's friday YAY!

::: posted by sugar at 7:04 PM


 
another movie that i want to see:

Dumb And Dumberer: When Harry Met Lloyd

Hee!

::: posted by sugar at 12:30 PM



Wednesday, January 22, 2003 :::
 
hmm...eeeenteresting...

i was catching up on my favorite blogs and my dear spinfamous on the east side brought up an interesting thought:

who are the people who i would NEVER EVER want to have see my blog?

1) family
2) darryl (we might consider this one)
3) mike
4) roomies

why? simply because i'm spilling my guts out and these people may misinterpret some of what they see here. also the random vents that are usually null and void by the next day could DEFINITELY kill me. but...yeah. let's just cross our fingers.

::: posted by sugar at 1:26 PM



Tuesday, January 21, 2003 :::
 
OH MY GRACIOUS!

I feel like I've come home after not being home much to find that my plants are wilting, my mail is piling up, and my pets are starving. (Except for the pets, that's actually all true.)

Meanwhile my friends are all blogging their brains out, my life is chock full of STUFF and my b-spot is collecting dust! EEK!

I went straight home from work for the first time since I've started, and I've fallen into an IM hole...just chatting and catching up with folks that are used to seeing me online all day and night. LOL.

Gosh where to begin...SUPERBOWL FEVER is in town...everywhere you look there are banners, the Raiders and Buccaneers have arrived in town this morning and the parties have begun...Bono, Justin, Britney, P. Diddy and all the celebs are checkin in too... Darryl can get into the stadium and watch rehearsals sometimes. Lucky bastard. Then again, he has to work til midnight from now til Sunday, and til 1am or so on Sunday, so he loses his weekend. Sigh.

I told him I loved him. Film at 11.

Pretty urked that American Idol has pre-empted 24 for a while. WTF!? I'm trading Jack and a possible nuclear bomb in LA for wanna be pop stars and crying and cheesy-ness at its finest? Sigh. I *HEART* 24. (Thanks to Kat for teaching me that back in the day...I *heart* ____.) Freakin Marie is in on it, damn it, and I wanna know WHY! We're very sad about Reza, by the way. I think he's so hot.

Still haven't caught an episode of Joe Millionaire, one of the biggest scams in TV history. And a pretty interesting study of sociology when you think about it. But the thing is, I have a life.

I missed the Golden Globes on Sunday night!!! ARGH!! Why? I was having dinner with Jinah, Matt and Darryl/Jinah's parents. FILM AT 11.

MOVIES I WANNA SEE:

The Hours - chick flick? Absolutely. But I'm loving anything that has Kidman/Moore/Streep and talks about the resiliency of the female spirit. Go girls! The website rocks also.

25th Hour - Spike Lee joint with Ed Norton (cutie pie in his own quirky way) about a guy's last day before he's gonna get locked up. Spike tends to drag with his flicks in the middle, and be too much into THE MESSAGE...this looks like a matinee, but I don't wanna wait til video. I love their tagline: "Can you change your whole life in a day?"

Antwone Fisher - 4 words: Directed by Denzel Washington.

A Guy Thing - Julia Stiles, man! So many ppl don't like her, but I dig her.

Just Married - JUST KIDDING!! I'll wait for HBO. When I'm tired of watching lawn bowling and reruns on the Game Show channel.

24 Hour Party People - a mockumentary about the birth of the Manchester music scene and the real story behind how raves got started. We're talking about New Order, Joy Division and the Happy Mondays to name a few choice bands.

Confessions of a Dangerous Mind - Clooney acting and directing! Roberts. Sam Rockwell, the guy who played the shifty good/bad guy in the Charlie's Angels movie. (Think back to that scene where he's all groovin to Pharaoh Monk, tryin to be James Brown...hehe) Drew Barrymore. A story of double lives - glamour and espionage/murder. Oooooh...

Chicago - I underestimated Moulin Rouge and the return of the musical/movie...and had to kick myself later for not seeing it on the big screen. Not planning on making the same mistake twice.

Talk To Her - I found out about this movie by accident...stumbling on the website. I can't encapsulate it as well as they did - just link up, read the synopsis and see for yourself.

I love the awards season...all the crazy marketing and tactics to get the Academy to vote for your film. The Golden Globe winners are supposed to hint who's gonna win the Oscars...blah blah blah.

Eek, 7pm already! I gotta get out of this chair...

::: posted by sugar at 7:02 PM



Wednesday, January 15, 2003 :::
 
damn guys, i learned a few things and was reminded of a few more since the last blog:

1) hormones are a BIIAAAATCH.
2) things happen when you least expect them to, and just when you think they never will.
3) in the wake of all of my abusive and hormonal venting, i'm being reminded of my original thoughts about darryl...that he really and truly is the best thing that has come into my life in a long time.

oh hey by the way...one of the reasons why i've been MIA these past few days is...

I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

semi-permanent-temporary-contract thingy at Metabolife HQ. accounting again...sigh. this stuff is actually more involved than what i did for ASHP, and their department is like 2.5 times the size of my last one. but i'm doing pretty well with my team so far, so let's just hope i don't screw this one up...lol.

::: posted by sugar at 6:39 PM



Saturday, January 11, 2003 :::
 
whirlwind...

since i got back to san diego...i've barely given myself enough time to sit and blog. it's one thing that's definitely got me all off-kilter.

right when i got in, darryl picked me up around lunchtime, dropped me off at home and then went to work. i felt all flu-ish (headachy, nauseous, cranky, not hungry) and then i realized i was CRAVE-Y too. after careful deduction and a few consultations, realized that the switch to ortho-tri-cyclen has got me loopy. too much estrogen.

i'm exploring a thought pattern these days. has to do with me and darryl. more often than not, he's been starting to get on my nerves. what, you ask, is bugging me in particular? things he says, things he does. when i have more time and i'm not typing this in his room while he's outside doing something, i'll get into detail...but this has me totally weirded out. like my patience level with him is so freaking low. quick example - we went to my apartment this afternoon, i was getting something in my room and then when i come out he's looking at my utility bill and asking my roommate about it. i was instantly irritated and had to leave the room. there are those who i'm sure are saying something like "i woulda yelled at his ass"...in fact, i can even hear some of you saying this right now. in one angle, it's like what's the big deal it's a freakin cable/internet/phone bill. but my whole thing is HELLO do you see me going through your mail? i'm gonna see if this irritation subsides after i get used to this new pill.

pussy envy?

what's ironically bad...is that his cousin maria, who i adore on so many levels, is back in san diego to stay after her move to arizona didn't work out. what sucks is that she has a cat, which of course i'm allergic to. the cat is cute, and that's saying a lot from me because i don't like cats. but what kills it for me is that the cat is all over the general living area where we're all chillin and i'm gettin all congested and miserable...and then darryl will play with the cat like crazy, hug it like a little baby, put his face up in her face and stuff, and then he'll take those same hands and TOUCH MY FACE or just touch me or hug me while he's still wearing that same shirt or sweater, knowing full well that i'm suffering...and then initially he gets all tripped out when i flinch or pull away...and then when he figures it out he's like "i'm sorry baby."

yeah, i know those of you who know me well and know how i am know that some of this is hormonally driven. i'm not like this. but same time, it just amplifies everything else.

phaaaaaaaaaaack.

anyway, i'll be back here again after the niners/bucks game tomorrow for some blog therapy.

oh wait one more notable - had an argument about tomorrow's game. believe that? i wanna go watch it at a sports bar, it's his first real experience watching a game for fun and not for work, and he's like "no one's gonna wake up at 10am and watch a football game. i have a big screen." "but it's fun to watch with a crowd of fans, you'll see." blah blah blah back and forth and finally i changed the subject. i dunno. i'll pick this up in about 18 hours.

::: posted by sugar at 7:11 PM



Friday, January 03, 2003 :::
 
lack of reliable and uninterrupted internet access around here. perhaps i'll try to post from sfsu sometime soon. otherwise i think i'll lose my mind!

::: posted by sugar at 5:39 PM


 
Happy 2003 Everyone!

Yes, I'm a wee bit late. But I hope that everyone had a safe and happy introduction to the new year....

Much to say, much to say...

Still on "vacation" at my family's place in the Bay...vacation from what, I'm not sure.

Anyway, greetings to all, and more to come...

::: posted by sugar at 5:15 PM

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