Thursday, November 28, 2002 :::
 
Happy Thanksgiving!

As I recover from my food coma, I have a lot lined up in the next 24 hours...

1. Figure out how to look cute after eating a Thanksgiving meal. How is it that Pumpkin can eat all that food and still wear that outfit!! Good gracious talk about having something to be thankful for!!!! Go girl!

2. Be good at the club, this is the first outing with D. Watch the wandering eyes and the urge to dance with a bboy that can shake that ass!

3. Get home eventually, rest (hahahha), and then get up to make the Aftermath Feast.

Since there aren't that many people that read this thing (or so it seems cuz only about 4 people throw comments on this mug, hehe) I can honestly say that I'm thankful for each and every one of you. Hell even if I don't know you and you're reading this, then I'm thankful for you since I've managed to entertain (or at least tried!).

I'm sure as hell counting my blessings, it's been a rough year...with a lot more challenges up ahead. But with faith and the power of blog *wink* I'll be sure to pull through.

So again, thanks is given to all of you for...your presence in my life. 'Nuff said.

*can i just sidebust and say a quick prayer that the DJ won't be all jiggy-fied tonight? pleasepleaseplease....as I hear "hot in herre" on the radio...eek...*

::: posted by sugar at 8:03 PM



Wednesday, November 27, 2002 :::
 
Happy Thanksgiving Eve!

contrary to most people's point of view...

I love weather like what we have today. Scattered heavy clouds, where it looks like it could rain on you any minute...but just for a minute. Enough breaks in the cloud cover so that the morning sun filters in. And there's enough wind to play a song on my chimes, with percussion by the big huge trees around my complex.

Cold enough to wear cozy sweaters and hats...but eek I have so many pairs of open toe shoes! I gotta dig up my boots. Hee...

::: posted by sugar at 9:15 AM



Tuesday, November 26, 2002 :::
 
We are amused by the upcoming movie..

Two Weeks Notice

...that is all. Interpret as you will...

::: posted by sugar at 8:46 PM


 
in the midst of pain that midol can't cure..

I'm on TV overload!

Gilmore Girls on WB
--Keiko/Laney has a boyfriend in the works!! WOOHOO!!
--Rory is having issues with PDA and Jess, post-Dean. sigh.

Osbournes Season 2 on MTV
--Sharaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahn! oops scratch that, it was just a teaser. Sucky Real World LV is on for now. (Someone needs to smack Trishelle.)

Major League on TBS
--Oldie but goodie. Gotta love Wesley Snipes playin a baseball player. Wearin a baseball uniform. Locker room scenes. Shake yo' ass! Watch yo'self!

BET's Tribute to Stevie Wonder
--We already loved Stevie, but to see artists like Brian McKnight and Musiq bringing their own interpretations to his beautiful songs...wheeee!

O on HBO
--I love Julia Stiles. Shakespeare, Mekhi Phifer and Josh Hartnett are good bonuses.

::: posted by sugar at 8:43 PM


 
i know i've said this before...
but the internet is an amazing thing.

it enables me to have friends all over the world, and maintain contact without the traditional pressures of constant conversation. cheaper than a phone call, hell we can even be on other phone calls while chatting and not miss a beat. then there are the chat rooms, where you're either totally lost or once you get into the rhythm of the conversation, it feels like everyone's brains are just connected. funny stuff.

i have this old friend, adriana. sweet sweet gal. met her at sdsu and she lived in another part of my first apt complex. i almost moved in with her and her sister at one point but it didn't happen. we drifted but i kept her on my buddy list. didn't have anything really to talk to her about since my own life was kickin my butt. when i went to new york a few weeks ago i had her on the brain because her sn is NYCluvr...etc. and she always talked about how she wanted to live there someday. so anyway, i see her on my BL yesterday, took a chance and sent her a message. it was so nice to catch up with her! she and her sis moved back to oxnard, works for the fed. govt. then *gasp* she mentions that she's been meaning to try and find me because she has a picture of us from one of my Dorado Plaza parties. (Good gracious i wonder how that looks.)

it's funny how even though you might not talk to someone for ages and ages...if you send an IM or an email they come back at you like OMG!! Hi!!! You probably wouldn't get the same response if you just BAM showed up at someone's house or office or something right? Hee. But it's great how you can just pick up a conversation as though only a few days or a week has gone by. I am blessed to have so many people in my life with whom I can do that with.

::: posted by sugar at 1:00 PM


 
get ur grub on

i think i'm in the works to gain like 300 pounds or something over the next few days...

thanksgiving menu - luke and phim's house

roast turkey
mashed potatoes
rice (of course, luke and darryl are gonna be there)
phim's yummy stuffing
spring salad
corn on the cob
asparagus spears
spinach dip

(all of this and we have to manage to get a good buzz on at the Jive Turkey party that night!)

friday - the aftermath - thanksgiving part two, my place

prime rib
garlic mashed potatoes
caesar salad
tomato/mozerella salad
mac and cheese (in debate)
bread with pesto dip
creamed spinach
oh and i can't forget the rice. hehe

eek what about dessert?! hmmm...we shall see.

if anyone's in the area and wants to join in on the feast, please drop me a line. :-)

::: posted by sugar at 12:37 PM


 
argh!!

i was working on my weekend update, right? well then i wasn't done so i saved it to a text file to post this morning. i go in to finish it and post and then BAM, the file is empty. WTF!!!!

grr. i'll be back ... the moral of the story is to SAVE, bloody SAVE your work.

::: posted by sugar at 12:30 PM



Wednesday, November 20, 2002 :::
 


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::: posted by sugar at 2:31 PM



Tuesday, November 19, 2002 :::
 
on my winamp playlist: Michelle Branch, Norah Jones, George Acosta, John Mayer, Clipse, LeeAnn Womack, Sting, Diana Krall, Mike Francis, Eve

on TV: Gilmore Girls....looking forward to Smallville and 24.

rented from Blockbuster: 13 Conversations About One Thing

want to read: The Hero with a Thousand Faces and The Power of Myth by Joseph Campbell

trippin over: the new Tar-zhay commercial that has a dope version of The Christmas Song. CHRISTMAS!!! OMG!!!

thinking: that my personal premonitions over the summer ("I'm really due for some real and non dysfunctional relationship. I'll meet someone before my birthday, watch.") and that silly Tarot Card reading earlier this year could really mean that...I could really be falling. Finally. Eek that sounds so cheesy. But oh well.

::: posted by sugar at 9:13 PM


 
timing is everything

Quite the bummer that John Mayer is headlining the SOLD OUT Jingle Ball on Friday, December 6th at Cox Arena. Between me and D trying to cash in on every hookup we've got...it looks like we're gonna have to take our chances on the scalpers.

Same thing with Norah Jones. Turns out they're not going to be giving out media passes anymore so it's either we pay $250 a head or take our chances the night of the show.

Ironically, as much as I'd love to chill to Norah, and I'd LOVE to jam to John (as I calculate the value of my belongings worth eBay-ing)...I'd be just as happy cruising around Santa Monica and LA with D. No distractions, just us. (Sheesh listen to me!)

Anyone have any suggestions for stuff to check out at Universal Studios? Or stuff not to waste time on? Hee.

::: posted by sugar at 7:00 PM



Thursday, November 14, 2002 :::
 
I just heard the most delicious story from a dear dear friend, who I'm growing to adore more every day. My soul brother! Hahaha...apples from the same tree.

For all intensive purposes I can't divulge too much information. But suffice to say that the morals to take away are:

--Like the 8 Mile tagline: "Every moment is another chance."
--Let your heart be your guide, don't be afraid when the feelings are strong.
--Trust your instincts when you know something is good for you, and when you know something is bad for you.
--There are little signs everywhere in life. Be ready to listen to them and heed their call.

::: posted by sugar at 6:47 PM


 
a promise!

i vow to do my very best to not blog stupid shit. sweet geezus there is so much CRAP out there!

things i will never do unless i'm severely demented/drunk/etc:

1. complain about non-sensical b.s. that belongs in a bad country-western song
2. post cheesy, horrible poetry. if i do write any for some reason i'll just put it on a piece of paper and burn it.
3. tYpE LiKe THiS or spell like dis mmmkae?

you get the picture.

::: posted by sugar at 6:42 PM


 
Happy Things

--Roses from the garden
--Calls to say "hi"
--Those long talks you have in the beginning, the ones that go on forever until you fall asleep
--Big hugs
--Little hugs
--Laughing and/or smiling just because...you have to.
--Catching yourself talking, pausing and seeing your friends just smiling at you.
--Having a sense that someone is in sync with you.
--A kiss on the hand
--Doing something nice for them and not feeling like it's some kind of game. It's just because you wanna do something nice for them.
--Feeling safe about who you are because they accept the good and the bad together.
--Feeling safe about accepting the good and bad about someone else.
--Having all this happy stuff melt away years of cynicism...for however long it lasts, who cares!

::: posted by sugar at 5:50 PM


 
highlights

it would take forever to catch up...unfortunately. there were so many blog worthy things that i observed and experienced these days.

east coast trip 11/8-11/12

the changing colors of fall are amazing. i will forever have this image in my mind of a the 95 north, trees of gold, orange, red and brown (with a few spots of evergreen)...

i didn't take that many pictures...I think Johnny Mayer said it best so I'll let him take over for a sec:

taken from "3X5"

I'm writing you to catch you up on places I've been
You held this letter probably got excited, but there's nothing else inside it
didn't have a camera by my side this time
hopping I would see the world with both my eyes
maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm
in the mood to lose my way with words

Today skies are painted colors of a cowboy's cliche'
And strange how clouds that look like mountains in the sky
are next to mountains anyway

Today I finally overcame tryin' to fit the world inside a picture frame
Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm in the mood to lose my way but let me say
You should have seen that sunrise with your own eyes
it brought me back to life

Went to a phat ass club called Dream..which unfortunately won't be there in January due to a forced shut down. An old warehouse turned into a plush 4 story party venue. Heard Biz Markie spin, didn't care much to see Magic Johnson somewhere in the place. Met a whole lot of interesting, beautiful and sometimes weird black men. I was impressed that the DJs all through the place were just kickin ass. One of em was playin all the classics from 89-93...from New Edition to BBD to Hi-5 to Naughty By Nature...freakin Wreckz-n-Effect!? It was great. I felt like I was in Jr. High/HS again.

I gotta say...it is a good moment in life when you're dancing with someone and you're perfectly in sync. SEXY.

It felt so good to breathe different air, be around different people, see old and new sights.

The flight over was crazy because we were flying towards the sunrise. Oh and I spent a couple of hours in a small town in Northern Kentucky!! That's where the Cincinnati Airport is. Hee!

Oh, I finally got to go to New York City! Wheee. It was a trip, I loved the energy and the hustle of it all. Since we didn't have a local to show us around (I won't get into why right now), we were kinda haphazard wandering around just gettin into shit. Hee...it was fun. I couldn't help but be excited seeing stuff that I'd always wanted to see up close. To look out my window and see the Statue of Liberty. Above and to my left is the Empire State Building. Seeing the Christmas decorations go up on 5th Avenue. Walking past the theater where they're playing RENT. Times Square in it's gaudy Vegas craziness. Subways. Crazy taxi drivers. Dinner in Chinatown. Driving past Ground Zero (by accident).

I'm already plotting the game plan for the next trip. Whenever the hell that is. LOL.

I still love D.C. so much. I think it was always my fascination with American history and all that. Being in a place with so much...history. Sheesh someone pass me a theasaurus already! I need to start flexing my creative muscles again. Anyway as I was saying...I just feel the energy of the surroundings...the power brokering going on, the simplicity and beauty of the architecture, the wide eyes of the tourists of every age. I loved seeing a group of kids is playing a soccer game in the shadow of the Washington Monument. It was unusually humid and warm, which was nice but at the same time kind of a bummer. I wanted that biting November cold that I remembered. But hey, who can complain? Not I... :-)

Overall it was a good trip. I learned a lot, and have a some good memories. Have several pictures for my mental photo album.

::: posted by sugar at 5:07 PM


 
bits and pieces

i took this from my scratch pad. stuff i started and perhaps didn't completely blog out...or never got around to posting. considering my long abscence from this space i gotta represent somethin!

wrote this sometime in early october i think?

i wanna talk about a movie called Brown Sugar that is all up in my thoughts.

Good gracious!

I had heard so many good things about this flick...and all from guys. Plus the trailers were dope, the soundtrack was off the hinges, and there's Mos Def. Nuff said, I was sold. Then Cabbie musta gone all nuts about the movie and kept goin on and on about the movie and how he knew I'd love it so much. At that point I was sold. I hadn't even heard any female reviews, and I thought it was a chick flick!

[Oh by the way, if you haven't seen it you might not want to read the rest of this. Go have a frozen Oreo or something.] So right off the bat comes the beat with the credits. Shots of Brooklyn. And the question that is now gonna be a catch phrase on first dates and chat rooms from here on out...

"When did you first fall in love with hip hop?"

Next is a montage of answers from everyone to Russell Simmons, Method Man, Talib Kweli, Black Thought and ?uestlove from the Roots, Jermaine Dupri...there were so many faces I couldn't keep track...all talking about their first listens to Krush Groove, Grandmaster Flash, Dana Dane...

This is a question posed by our heroine, Sydney at the start of her interviews with the latest, greatest and timeless people who have touched the hip-hop movement in some way. She writes about the turn of the tide from hip hop to the mainstream, and art imitates life as her best friend and love of her life (Dre) goes off and marries someone else that doesn't share the same soul. So the main thing of the story is of course, how she gonna get her man! Plus the side stories of the Cabbie and the state of hip hop music...off the hook. Formula? Sometimes. But damn, if you didn't smile when Syd and Dre were reminiscing on the park bench...or if you don't feel the burn when they finally kiss, or the unsaid lines in the looks exchanged at times...or the *yay* feeling when he's driving over there with Cabbie on the cel phone...you need a heart transplant cuz your shit prolly ain't beatin no more. I smiled/laughed through most of the film cuz it just touched on an old school part of me that was being threatened by recycled pop remakes, whoomp! there it is and the like.

My love affair with hip hop had to be kept a secret when I was younger. After a year in public school kinder, I got carted off to private school . I'm not sorry for that, in fact it made me more rounded in the long run. Anways, hip hop and rap were not exactly welcome in my house. My older brother was my only link to the stuff I didn't have money to buy, since he was 8 years older. I couldn't really tag along with his friends, and we didn't exactly get along back then so I would just hang around when he'd play Run DMC, Kurtis Blow, Grandmaster Flash, Eric B and Rakim, Slick Rick, Dana Dane, Beastie Boys (all before Mom and Dad came home)...etc. Other times, I'd just wander into the room if he was watching Yo! MTV raps, or I'd play it low if it was just me late at night. I loved Rapper's Delight, I'm tellin you, DOUG E FRESH and the Get Fresh crew...they were my first loves. He had that voice, the beat, and he took me to the SHOW. "Six minutes, Doug E Fresh you're on." (Not to mention he sampled off of Inspector Gadget.)

I was hooked. And when I transferred to public school two years later, it was OVER. No more uniforms...shell toe addidas, sweatsuits, pompadours and tails, aqua net...all the styles I wasn't allowed to wear, basically. Bustin out the cardboard and linoleum for battles, pop lockin at lunchtime, beat boxin, tryin to write anything that rhymed...I couldn't get enough of the scene. Learning to dance was a trip. But it just felt so good.

my family wasn't having it though. err.
........................................................
this was after an sdsu football game...can't remember exactly when.

went to the sdsu/utah game yesterday to support elaine, who was a homecoming court semi-finalist.

we had some crazy cool seats! had a combo of old and new faces there to support her and christina r. thankfully, they announced the finalists during the first quarter, and since elaine didn't make the finals (grr) we just...bounced. hee. seeing also as the aztecs are a sad 0-5 and that not much was expected from them against the utes.

went to osaka's with josie, elaine and nhon. gahd i really missed josie. we realized we'd both kinda fallen into the same "hole" - caught up with living and survival, not trying to air out the drama that was our lives and freak everyone out. so we kinda gravitated to new friends who wouldn't ask questions we didn't want to answer. or stuck to core friends that already knew what was up and didn't have to explain. dated a few of the wrong guys. etc.

guess i just hope that this reunion goes somewhere. not like when you see an old friend and you're just like "hey!" "hey!" "call me!" "definitely!" and then nothing.

on another note, why is it so hard for me to get into football this year? i'm looking at today's schedule and thinking "ehh...it's ok." guess it's cuz i don't get to see joe anymore. the sports king. wonder if he's still smoking 3 bowls a day.

prologue: grossie flaked as feared, she even went so far as to ask the turtle out after she found out about me and d. nhon and elaine broke up after years and years of being together. eek. joe, i never got ahold of him yet.
.......................................................

::: posted by sugar at 11:10 AM



Monday, November 04, 2002 :::
 
dawn patrol (again)

another great evening turned into morning.

the sun's gonna rise in like an hour.

part of me is so amused that the ADD hasn't kicked in. i'm not finding or coming up with reasons why i can't kick it. i actually missed him today..AND admitted it. WTF?!

and everything is still so innocent. this is the best part. ok cynics around the world, you can go ahead and start counting down for the bad part to begin or whatever. but i'm not listening this time. just gonna enjoy this one for a while, however long i get.

did i mention how happy i am that the niners won yesterday against the raiders? that damn first field goal was so busted. but thank goondness the 2nd one wen through just fine in OT. otherwise some crazy shit wsas bound to happpen. LOL

ok falling asleep at the wheel, so to speak. to be continued...

::: posted by sugar at 4:48 AM



Sunday, November 03, 2002 :::
 


::: posted by sugar at 11:50 AM



Friday, November 01, 2002 :::
 
grr.

it's super-lame when you download a song, and when you go to play it...it's SOMETHING ELSE.

*bleh* (yuckface)

::: posted by sugar at 8:24 PM


 
like whoa

--east coast in a week.
--halloween party at the pimp palace in a bit.
--tomorrow is roomie's and buddy's bday (ironic how they're born on the same day but so very different).
--tomorrow is also the APSA fashion/talent show, which i'd said i was going to. (hey, none of those folks came through for the harvest moon gala! shoot.)
--tomorrow is also the cirque eos or whatever it's called that i said i was going to. (shieet!)
--tomorrow sometime i have to (well not HAVE TO) go downtown and help out with the democratic campaign.
--i gotta reorganize my clothes. the current system is not cute.

hee. tonight's going to be interesting. i won't place any bets on anything, i'll just talk about it tomorrow.

as for last night/this morning. i can't believe i saw the sunrise. completely sober! hahaha...that sounds shitty doesn't it. the only other times i'd see the sun come up were due to all-night work stuff, coming home late late late from clubbing or...because we uh...were influenced to stay awake for long periods of time. (guess that has a double meaning huh. pick one, pick both, whatevers!)

i don't know what possessed me to be so brutally honest. i couldn't believe myself at times. but it just made sense, and felt safe. please God, don't let this one get out of whack. in a lot of ways i'm really on the hook, but in other ways i don't care. i think i've paid my dues. time has come to grow up. don't get me wrong, the game isn't over. (shieet.) it's just different for now.

what's even more surprising is that this isn't such hard work necessarily. we all know the saying to be yourself and all that Hallmark stuff. but for the first time in years, just me is just enough. and having someone come back to me and tell me how they feel about what i've overcome and how i live my life makes me think for a second, "yoo tawkin t'me?" and the fact is, it's true. i'm actually growing up. i didn't realize it is all. hahahaa... and finally i think i can get what i deserve. and be able to give back without fear. the second one is a biggie. but hey, y'all know i love a challenge. i'm down. ;-) one day at a time i guess. it's a little more maintenance when they live 3 minutes away.

more and more i'm singing this song...and that's one of the sweetest parts of this whole saga...
glad to wake up every day without you not have you on my brain
no more waiting late up at night
no more having to fuss and fight
i'm proud to say that i will never make the same mistake
no more thinkin' bout what you do
there's no more of me running back to you

people are cautioning that this whole thing is going fast. a valid concern. but the fact is, when i'm out shopping, i make a trip around the shop and know right away what i want. if it don't fit right then it's back on the rack and try again. but i'm not gonna circle around debating, or trying to get the 2nd opinion of everyone around me.

dang this is insane isn't it? and something actually possessed me to tell my sister this story. weird. i think i surprised her, but that's cool. lol.

::: posted by sugar at 7:53 PM

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